January 1, 1865
Sunday. About one o’clock this morning, I was awaked by the fire bells. I went down [the street] with Lange. Wiedemann’s house & Kancarter’s drug store was up in flames. All helped. Lange went off with my key & I could not get in until four o’clock, almost frozen – rascal as he was. At saloon. Lange wasted away all we had. He started today with Koenig for Fort Smith on an expedition for stuff. We all got a little boozy. Mary still sick, but I think a little better. I hope she is recovering & will be soon well. Oh God, grant that she may recover her health. Oh God, spare her to her mother & me.
January 2, 1865
Wiedemann’s house was burned also. At saloon. No business. Up to see DeKay to see about the house of Bridges & he told me he would have nothing to do with it. Saw Bernard [who] said my mother could not get a permit. Went up to 1st Missouri Cavalry to get Wiedemann’s specs. Got them. Mary still sick but I think she is a little better. God, grant that she may recover and grant that I may be able to get into some business.
January 3, 1865
At saloon. Up at Treasury Department. Took out Lange’s permit. Bernard thought agent said I could get Lange’s license as DeKay would be removed. I hope so. Business dull. I hope I may be able to get a license.
January 4, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Mary seems to be worse today. Oh, I do hope that she may recover. Oh God, grant that she may be restored to health. Wrote letter to Delano Dodge today. I do hope that I may be able to do enough to provide for myself.
January 5, 1865
Rainy. At saloon. No business at all. Mary about the same. I hear that DeKay, the Provost Marshal, is removed. I hope so, but I do not know whether we will find a better one. Jesse Nozer got me some flannel undershirts today.
January 6, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Got drunk. Got letter from [my cousin] Lucy Stratton. Fauche sold out up here. Staid all night.
January 7, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Fauche here. Schreifer moving tonight. Mary about the same. Don’t seem to get any better or worse. I hope she may recover. Borrowed 26 dollars of Fauche today.
January 8, 1865
Sunday. At home. Down at saloon with Schreifer. Got drunk at evening.
January 9, 1865
At saloon. Lange came back & in afternoon up at house [with] Fouche.
January 10, 1865
At saloon. Got license out today. Business pretty good. Lange & I came to terms. Fauche drunk.
January 11, 1865
At saloon. Business so so. I bought a pair of soldier’s boots for 5 dollars.
January 12, 1865
At saloon. Lange gives whiskey to everyone. Old Moore said if he did not stop, someone will tell on us. I hope we may get along well. Rough crowd. Saw Dr. Heartt today. He came to see Mary again.
January 13, 1865
At saloon. Lange sick & mad at me. Koenig & I went to a eating house. Came up drunk. He has been sleeping with me for several days.
January 14, 1865
At saloon. Saw Mr. & Mrs. Botsford today. I feel sick & despairing. Mary about the same. I do not think she will ever get well. Oh God, grant that she may be restored to health. Bless us all. God forgive us the sins we have committed & prepare us for a better & holier life to live.
January 15, 1865
At saloon in morning. Went for Dr. Webb for Lange. Reading. Middle of day at saloon. Afternoon, Mary seems to be no better. Oh God, spare her & restore her to health & happiness. Oh God, pardon us all for our sins. Reading Count of Monte Cristo.
January 16, 1865
January 17, 1865
January 18, 1865
At saloon. [Editors Note: The last three entries appear to have been written on the same day in in a hand writing that is abnormally illegible. In fact, the dates are entered as December rather than January.]
January 19, 1865
At saloon. Up to Mrs. Fulton’s… I shall quit [this business with Lange] if I can get my money back.
January 20, 1865
At saloon. Business very dull. We hear that there will be a draft in this state. I hope not. Wrote letter home today.
January 21, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. I am mad. The niggers make me mad today. Sent letter home today. Rainy today.
January 22, 1865
Sunday. At saloon. Business good. Was a little boozy today. Mary about the same.
January 23, 1865
At saloon. Business pretty well. Got a little boozy today. Mary about the same. Lange & I had a pretty good business I think. I hope we may. We get along pretty well so far but he is cross sometimes & disagreeable.
January 24, 1865
At saloon. Business pretty good. Got boozy. Mary about the same.
January 25, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. At Treasury Department to see about a _______. Night, got drunk. Mary about the same. Very cold weather past few days.
January 26, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Lange mad. I am not so drunk today as I was yesterday. Very cold weather. Mary seems to be about the same.
January 27, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Weather moderated a little today. No news.
January 28, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Mary about the same. I have no more money than at first. Sold nine dollars & a half in gold for nineteen dollars. Gave Fauche ten dollars [but still] owe him thirty-eight dollars.
January 29, 1865
Sunday. At saloon. Business pretty good. Nothing new. About drunk today.
January 30, 1865
At saloon. Business dull. Sold twenty dollars in silver for thirty-eight dollars [and] paid Fouche ten dollars. I owe him now twenty-eight dollars. Nothing new today. Mail in but I did not get a letter. Wrote letter to [Nathaniel W.] Davis today. No news.